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Wed, 23 Jan 2008 22:18:20 GMT

haven't been here in a while...to tell the truth, I forgot about it.

Updates...lets see. There is so much to say and not enough time to say it. I should write a book. I moved and probably will be moving again soon. I want to be an elementary teacher. I dont have a boyfriend anymore unfortunately. I have no money, but I'm working on it. My car is now crap....not sure how that happened so fast. I will become even more of an aunt in April when my two nephews come. I have a job at Starbucks that I love. I dont really have any hobbies right now. I haven't found the church that I will regularly attend yet, but I'm praying about it. I started a new book called the Princess.
There...those are all outside up dates...now for the inside updates.

God is so good. I don't always see it, but He is always good. I don't always understand it, but he is always good. I don't always trust it, but He is always good. I am nothing, and He is everything. That is a good thing. But I sometimes take it to the extreme. My self-esteem is crap. I'm working on it and slowly trying to find my worth in Christ. I am reading this book about success and trying to find ways to apply its principles while staying in line with the word amd God's will for me. I really want to glorify God. I'm trying not to walk around defeated. I have been saved by grace and I will walk in that grace and freedom.
That all that I can write for now. I may muster up the courage to post more later...

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 23:10:29 GMT

God is so amazing. Time and time again as we fail to seek himn, or fail to obey him, he gives us his grace. And not only does he give us his grace, but he gives us his hand and his favor. He loves me so much to keep my head above water until i finally grab onto his strong and loving hand. I can not praise him enough.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 14:45:51 GMT

Everyone we meet needs the love of Christ.
Everywhere we go is a mission field for Christ.
School, church, the grocery store, the soccer field...everywhere.
How will we proclaim his name today?

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 15:19:18 GMT

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.
What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.
You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.
Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

i dont have an ipod.

Your New Year's Resolutions

1) Get a pet frog

2) Eat more escargot

3) Travel to Sweden

4) Study warrior dancing

5) Get in shape with stripping classes

What Should Your New Year's Resoluton Be?

hmmmm...i'll look into that.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 22:41:37 GMT

Be still an know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth. The Lord Almighty is among us. The God of Jacob is our fotress.
Ps. 46:10-11

And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who are called according to his purpose. For those God forknew, he also predesting to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, so that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those God predestined, he also called, those he called, he also justified, those he justified he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?
Romans 8:28-31

These are the scriptures that I have been able to memorize that have bascially kept me alive. We serve an amazing God.
I have been alone alot. I haven't really gotten to spend a whole lot of time with my dad. Both of these kinda disappointing, but I know that I am here for a reason, so I am not worrying. For so long, I have tried to be strong. Now I am striving ot be weak so Christ can be strong through me. I have found that this is the key to surviving here. I have gotten to spend a lot of time in the word, and praying, and just seeking Christ. The times that I am in the word, and the times that I am before my Abba Father have been amazing. I have gotten to know Him better, and have been experiencing true joy and complete fulfilment. Emotional rollercoasters and being alone have really brought me to my knees. I have done a lot of crying, but I have done a lot of rejoicing too. Because through all the hardship, through all the neglect, thorugh all the feeling completely unwanted, I have had to rely on Christ. I have had to hold on to him for my every move. But like the word says, "the God of Jacob is our fortress." So i know that I am saved. I am wanted. I am not alone. I have to rejoice because all that Christ has done for me, and who He is in my life compels me to. May God receive all the glory forever.

I don't know how much computer time I will have, but I just wanted to give a shout out and let you guys kno what was up. Thank you for all your prayers. It has been much needed and much appreciated.
Stay strong in the Lord. Keep seeking Him.

Kayla Jo

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 01:39:38 GMT

hey everybody...
i need some major prayer. i'm leaving in 4 days to go visit my dad. this is good news becuz he finaly called, and stressful news becuz i don't really know what i am gonna do or what its gonna be like. but i am trying to trust God with this trip. i know he will pull through. i just need yall to pray for safe travels for me, and also that i can be the Jesus that my dad needs to see. He's not exactly the easiest person for me to witness to.
so if yall would do that for me, that would be awesome.
thanks
kayla

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 16:24:10 GMT

question:
how will we (as the body of Christ) show His love to others today?

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 13:31:34 GMT

everystudent.com

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 14:13:20 GMT

1 Peter 1:8,9

"Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls."

Even though we haven 't ever seen Him, we believe in Him and are completely satisfied....that's mind-boggling. Peter says we are receving the "goal of [our] faith, the salvation of [our] souls." Is Christ really the goal of our faith? Is He the satisfaction of our soulds? What is my goal in life? Is it to glorify God? It should be. Just like I was telling Mrs. Pam yesturday...we fill our lives with so much stuff that we think will satisfy us, when Christ is the only One who could ever bring us true satifaction and fulfillment. Who/What will my satisfaction and fulfillment come from today?

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 12:00:46 GMT

Psalm 28:7
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

today is a day that the Lord has made....we have no reason not to rejoice! He is our provider and comforter. He is our healer and strength. He will protect me because I am his child. I am part of a chosen priesthood, a holy nation. He delights in me and I in him. The joy of the Lord is our strength.

Live in the joy of our Lord Jesus today.

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 21:32:06 GMT

KAYLA
K	is for	Kind
A	is for	Articulate
Y	is for	Young
L	is for	Lovesick
A	is for	Athletic

What Does Your Name Mean?

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 02:45:12 GMT

ok....life. interesting. i know that i am passing through this life and time toward a higher goal. there is so much heartache and joy and all kinds of emotions floating around for such a short time.
life is short.
life on earth that is.
we should be keeping our eyes on the prize. on Christ. on the only one that will give us joy. but instead we sometimes look to other things or people to provide that joy, or that sense of acceptance.
that is what the world wants these days: acceptance. we want people to like us. we want to fit the picture of the latest fad. at this point in my life, my longing for acceptance is from my dad. i want him to be a real father. i want him to be and do so many different things, but he can't. and he won't. he's not a Christian.
"For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God." (1 Cor. 1:18)
he isn't going to conform to my ideal picture because that isn't what he sees. But I guess that's just my heavenly Father looking out for me. Now I have the opportunity to seek Christ on a whole different level. I have the opportunity to depend on him as a Father instead of just God. He is my Dad, my Abba. He is the one that I can run to when I scrape my knee or when my feelings get hurt. He is the one that will give me away at my wedding and be there when my kids are born. He will always be there. I can grow with him and he can know me more intimately than a normal father/daughter relationship would be. that is all good......to say. but beliving and applying it are so much harder.
Trust. Love. Faithfulness. all these from a Father that genuinely cares about me and desires a relationship with me instead of words like abandonment, apathy, and neglegence.
life on earth is short. all of these emotions, all of these mixed feelings that come in the package of living life are pointless if they are not for the purpose of glorifying God. I would be wasting my time to feel sorry for myself or get caught up in little fights and heart tugs with my dad. The main focus is Christ. If I feel sorry for myself, or if others feel sorry for me then I am not doing my job as a Christian. Yall, look to Christ. He will provide you with all the comfort and healing that you need. He will fill all the voids in your life. He will give you a life of joy and happiness that you can't find anywhere else. Seek Christ and you will desire to seek Him. Give Him the glory and you really will be rewarded.

These are my thoughts....if they are incoherent, i understand. lol.
goodnight.

kayla jo

sigh sweet song....

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 00:58:19 GMT

"Long Slow Beautiful Dance"

Sounds like a scene from the silver screen
Yeah, that's how it was
Love doesn't always look like a picture perfect storybook
Ah, but sometimes it does

Standing beside her the stars shined even brighter
And for a moment all the world was, all the world was still
I knew we belonged together the moment my eyes met hers
And I thought nothing lasts forever, but maybe this one will

[Chorus]
A deep breath and baby steps
That's how the whole thing starts
It's a long slow beautiful dance
To the beat of a heart

The world starts to spin again, you learn things you didn't know then
Feels like the bloom is off the rose
But you weather a few storms and you pull out a few thorns
And together the garden grows and grows

[Repeat Chorus]

It's a long, slow, beautiful dance, my friend

The house is filled with so much love
We got more than enough for two
So we've been thinking about having a baby
I know it sounds crazy, but it seems like the natural thing to do

[Repeat Chorus]

It's a long, slow
It's a long, slow
It's a long, slow

i know, i know

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 15:14:47 GMT

Proverbs 10:19
"When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise."

i need to learn this.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:13:04 GMT

The secret isn't a secret at all....

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 03:10:06 GMT

our past is ordained. our present is ordained. our future is ordained.
Christ has set us free from bondage. The very things we think are giving us joy and freedom are tying us down. eveyrthing happens for a reason....i know i know, so cliche, but listen. it is not easy to see in the midst of trial, but we must hang on. That is what the body of Christ is for. When one of our brothers or sisters is stumbling, do we help them or hurt them? there is no grey area.
but what about those who are not saved? we can either help them or hurt them. If we reach out to them and show them Christ, we are helping them find joy. we are planting a seed that God will use for his glory. if we see someone hurting and pas them by, the enemy is prowling around like a roaoring lion, seeking someone to devour. we have to reach out to those who are hurting. we need to look at them through God's eyes: saved and unsaved.
looking at my dad, it is hard to see black and white. i see a lot of grey. i feel a lot of grey. it's shady and cloudy and it covers my sight of the kingdom and my true calling. i get so caught up in my emotions, my past, my feelings, my assumptions, that i forget that Christ brings me true joy. Christ is the one that will give me the strength to see my dad like He sees him.
Sometimes I get so bitter and I start to question God's Sovereignity. It's so hard not to slip into that rut. I get so caught up in making plans and trying to get everything to work out fine that I forget that God is in control and he will take care of everything.

I'm gonna go...I have a lot of thinking to do.

God is good. We serve a mighty God. hopefully I'll see yall tomorrow.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 05:15:04 GMT

Your Daddy Is Pedro Martinez

What You Call Him: Dada

Why You Love Him: He knows best

Who's Your Daddy?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.
Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

i'm bored. as you can tell. i'm gonna go run. i think.

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 02:46:02 GMT

what was your latest dream?
what was your weirdest dream?

think about it. if dreams really mean something, what are they saying? I've had some pretty weird dreams. frightening, pleasant, boring, embarrassing, you name it...so what does it all mean? is your mind just pulling together different pictures? is it the last thing that was on your mind before you fell asleep? is it your subconcious mind telling you something, or trying to work something out?

just a thought...

now i'm gonna go run. byes!

if you want to find, you have to first look

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 01:21:59 GMT

I got to invite a guy to church today. I was working, and he asked me what my (choir trip) necklace stood for. I wasn't able to give him a full-blown description and share the gospel because I had other customers, but I told them what they meant and that I had gone on a mission trip with my church. He told me that he hadn't been to church since he was 17. So I invited him to ours. He was hesitant, but God can do mighty things. It was really neat.

Psalm 5:7,8
7 But I, by your great mercy,
will come into your house;
in reverence will I bow down
toward your holy temple.

8 Lead me, O LORD, in your righteousness
because of my enemies—
make straight your way before me.

In order to do right, we have to seek what is right.
The Lord will guide us if we seek him. He will give us our desires if we seek him with all of our hearts.

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 03:20:31 GMT

I can't sleep. I want to, but I can't. I have to get up early tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Independence Day! I know that everyone is thinking about a free land, but how about thinking about us as a free people spiritually.

*Tomorrow reminds me of how men and women have fought for our freedom.
-Tomorrow also reminds me of how Jesus Christ died on the cross and rose again for my freedom.
*Tomorrow reminds me of patriotism, and how our nation gets so passionate about what tomorrow stands for.
-Tomorrow also reminds me of the apathy that we show towards the love Christ showed for us. We should be as passionate everyday about what Christ has done for us, as we get passionate about July 4th.
*Tomorrow reminds me of the millions of dollars people are going to spend on fireworks, hotdogs, and other items for entertainment.
-Tomorrow also reminds me of how little we give to others and how much we keep for ourselves.
*Tomorrow reminds me of the pride our nation feels when we sing the National Anthem or say the Pledge of Allegiance.
-Tomorrow also reminds me of how our nation wants to take the principles of God out of our schools and public places even though it was what this nation was founded on.

Just think.......There are a lot of passionate people in the world. Imagine if we all expressed as much passion for Christ as we do with sports, national holidays, celebrities, movies, music, fads, and other such things.

I hope that everyone has a happy 4th of July. Be proud of our nation and those that have fought for us. Be proud of how much Christ has blessed us.

God Bless!
Kayla Jo

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 22:01:39 GMT

eyes on the pilgrimage- not the valleys.
face towards the only One who will give me joy.
focus on making every move completely about Christ.

It's long, but please read

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 14:48:32 GMT

The Teenage Bill of Rights
We, a new generation of young Americans, in order to protect the heritage of our forefathers and secure the blessings of liberty for ourselves and generations to come, do affirm and pledge this declaration:

When character and morality are uncommon qualities,

When corporations and marketers seek to profit from our destruction,

When pop culture icons do not represent our values,

When Judeo-Christian beliefs are labeled as intolerant,

When activists seek to remove God from our schools,

When truth is deemed relative and unknowable,

It is necessary for us, the emerging generation of young Americans, to stand for what is right and reclaim the values that have made our nation great. We call our nation to a higher standard, a lifestyle based

not on convenience, but on character,

not on what is easy, but on what is excellent,

not on what feels good, but on what is good,

not on popularity, but on principle,

not on what is tempting, but on what is true.

We, as young Americans, assert our right to determine our future and the future of our great nation. We hold these truths as our God-given rights, and we embrace them with our hearts and our lives:

We recognize that God, our Creator, is the source of all truth.

We will live with honor, always striving to do the right thing, even when it is unpopular. We will be honest and truthful in matters large and small, regardless of the consequences.

We will take responsibility for our actions, and not point to governments, schools, celebrities, parents, or friends to justify our wrong decisions.

We recognize that we are responsible for our mistakes. We will pursue purity throughout our lives.

We will not be seduced by a fabricated idea of sex and love.

We will save our bodies and hearts for our future spouses, and once married we commit to pursue faithful and enduring relationships.

We will see through the lies of drugs and alcohol and refuse to let any chemical influence our thinking or destroy our lives.

We will respect the authorities placed in our lives, even though some may not live as honorably as they should.

We will honor our parents, teachers, and other leaders.

We will reach out with compassion to the hurting and less fortunate, both in our society and around the world.

We refuse to be absorbed with our own comforts and desires.

We recognize the value of each life, whether born or unborn, and we seek to protect those who are unable to protect themselves.

We will do our best to represent and communicate our Creator to our peers, leaders, and society as a whole.

We will work to see that every person has the opportunity to see and hear about the true nature of our God.

In signing, we commit to pursue a life that exemplifies these standards.

We refuse to sit idly by and witness the destruction of our generation.

With God's help, we envision a bright and prosperous future for the nation we love.

would you like to sign this bill of rights?

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 02:00:48 GMT

Sharing Christ with others gives me so much joy. While I was working today, a lady that comes in all the time complimented me on my choir trip cross necklace I was wearing. I got the opportunity to tell her about our church and the ministry that we do. She was really excited and surpised that our church was involved in outreach...especially with students. It was really nice and refreshing...

Sat, 27 May 2006 23:04:07 GMT

hbtkjbmwb

Thu, 18 May 2006 14:20:52 GMT

God is a gracious God. Amen? It is so nice to know that when I mess up Christ is there to not only forgive what I've done, but also to welocome me back and give me a fresh start.

The end of a school year, the begginning of summer, the big graduation- it's all right here. How are we going to spend our summer? Often when students are asked about their walks with Christ during the schoolyear, the complaint is school. Now we don't have that excuse. So what is gonna be our excuse now? I think we get so caught up in everything around us that we forget why we are here. I get so caught up in my sports, my work, my school, my social life, that I forget that I am here for one reason only- to glorify God. God has kindly given us other things that we can enjoy, but thats not the main purpose of life. it is not about us. it is not about our enjoyment. But ya know what the kool thing is? if we surrender our lives to Christ and give him everything we have, every move we make, our very being, then he will reward us. Being in the center of God's will and glorifying him is the most fulfillment one will have. If we are sinning and saying, "oh I just want to look at that, think that, do that one more time" we are selling ourselves short for what God has planned for us.

Whatever is...
-true
-noble
-right
-pure
-lovely
-admirable
if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think on such things.
Phil. 4:8

if we are thinking on only these things, then everything else in our lives will fall into place.